no title, take 2

every day at work i am faced with the realization that i am not a very positive person. it's something i have always known. i am easily disappointed, let down, upset. i had convinced myself it was beaten altogether, but lately, like i said, it's become blatantly apparent.
'be happy, think happy, you are happy'
i wish it were so simple.

the good news is that when i come home, things are better. i like myself and my life and my boyfriend and my family and my friends.
it's just, sometimes, i don't like it as much, sometimes.

why can't i escape? will i ever?